Coping With Change

In the past year, I have been through more changes than I think I have in my entire life. Senior year started off with a huge change, we were I guess, "a big deal" now. :) Things dealing with college even started popping up at the end of our junior year, so we were expecting alot more to come with senior year, naturally. Scholarships needed to be applied for, grades needed to be met in order to recieve these scholarships, they needed to met on time, etc. On top of all of that, you had to enjoy your last year of high school so you definately needed to leave a little time gap in there for all of the fun stuff. But this is where I got caught up, I caught a severe case of senioritis my senior year, though symptoms did start showing up as early as my junior year! But I quickly figured out that I needed to get with the program.

Change hasn't been that difficult for me. I think that I have dealt with it quite well and things are going pretty great so far. I think that change is definately necessary because without it you're not going to experience new things or move on correctly in your life. College has been a wake up call for myself, and I'm sure as well with many other freshman on campus here at Butler. In order to make this transition I had to first of all, get used to living with an apartment FULL of girls, secondly get used to the fact that Mom and Dad aren't going to call me every single morning to make sure I made it to school on time, and also: there not there to give me rules anymore! I will admit that I have taken advantage of the fact that I can do what I want now, but doing what you want won't always get you what you need, especially in college. I started making myself get to bed on time and making sure that I made it to class on time, though a few times I did slip!

I think that I have initiated change in myself because I have had to learn to become more responsible, and also more independent. By becoming more independent I have had to learn how to get things done on my own, such as the always anticipated LAUNDRY. I have also had to mentally tell myself that I need to sit down and study, when deep down I may have wanted to just go sleep, or go hang out with friends. I have experienced alot of emotioinal reactions to change, but most of those were the first couple of weeks that I was here. I'm not going to lie about it, I really really missed my parents being around...who would have thought!?

I think that change so far has played a positive role in my life. I am excited to experience other changes that will come along with the rest of my college career and also the future beyond that.